I just had a question, why are you sure you want to stay? Not judging or anything I promise, I'm just curious. but ugh girl that really doesn't sound good, the money thing and not enjoying being with him it seems like. not that you never enjoy it just that you're having a tough time with it which is ofc hard to deal with. I was just gonna say how you need to be with someone who will help GROW your relationship with God instead of doing nothing about it, as well as making God the center of your relationship. Just to relate a little bit, not comparing or anything, but rn I have a boyfriend and we've only been dating a little more than 4 months which isn't long at all and I assume you guys have been together for way longer but I'm a strong Christian and in my future I see myself being with someone who has a passion for God just like me, and will help me grow in my faith as well. someone who prioritizes God, prays with me, will do cutsie little bible studies with me, worship next to me at church, etc. and when I have kids I'm not about to go to church with my kids while my husband stays home, yk? that's just how I see myself but my boyfriend right now isn't that way, he is such a good guy and I'm pretty sure he believes in God but he's just not educated on anything and isn't Christian. I can plant seeds for him, but he needs to accept christ into his life for himself, not for me if that makes sense. and having God in his life and our relationship is so so important to me and I just don't see it working if we don't have that. which I hope and pray one day he will live for Jesus but I think it would be best if he worked on that when we weren't together you know. just lately I've had an off and unsettling feeling about it that i've voiced to him but rn I'm kinda stuck. I'm literally so sorry I turned that into my own rant but I feel you and I hear you, we've got different struggles but my advice would be to pray about it if you haven't already, that's what I have been doing and it brings me so much peace/ give your worries and anxieties to the Lord and he will guide you and give you answers. sometimes the hardest but best thing is to let go, but you never know what is in store for you and I promise you will be lead on the right path. thinking of you tonight and praying for you! love u <3

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