academic stress

senior year has been crazy in the most mundane way ever. i've never felt so drained and tired. the fact the worst is coming soon isn't helping either. i've been binge eating from all the stress and i'm so in denial to the fact i can't escape procrastination. my world feels colorless, as if there's nothing worth looking forward to. life feels like a constant loophole. study, study, study. that's all i must do. one simple word. yet i can't bring myself to do it. it might just be laziness but at this point i feel like hanging myself hahahahaha. ugh. having asian parents worsen the impact too. i just can't wait for this bullshit to all end. i feel so incapable, unworthy and purposeless. this huge exam is supposedly determining my future path. wow. love it. "be a doctor, or pharmacist! or maybe engineer?" what if i want to be dead? LOL! ok typical teen problem bla bla i know y'all adults have it harder...but..just let me be emo for a second.

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adina School October 06, 2024 at 11:54 am 0 0