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i have no friends. some might say that it's my fault. like "put yourself out there", "go talk to people". but why is it always my fucking job to do that? it's always my job to keep people happy. i recently broke contact with a friend i had for 8 years. it was always my job to text them first, it was my job to keep them happy and never talk about my feelings and if i did, there was always an excuse or conveniently, there was always something else to talk about. they would use their adhd as an excuse why they didn't talk to me. but that's real fucking funny because their boyfriend would be attached to their hip constantly and they don't even fucking know each other in real life. he lives in fucking Oklahoma and they've barely known each other for two years. they'd always call each other "love" or "my dear" shut the fuck up bitchass mf, are you fucking british? and the last time we talked (sometime in june) i said something about cocaine (it was a stupid little joke, nothing major) and ray (their boyfriend) got offended and that mf didn't even tell me. he told them in private. and then ace (my friend) fucking told me that he was sad that i said something about drugs. they were acting like his fucking mother. they literally said, "something's been going on in his personal life blah blah and he's sad and he wants to call in private" BROOO. just say you wanna leave instead of making a dumbass excuse. and the most hilarious thing of it all was that i lost my dog, had to move out because of some dipshit, and had to constantly help my parents with moving/cooking and cleaning but ohhh i mention drugs and she turns into mama bear and nurtures him. bitch stfu. you never fucking asked how i was doing. you never cared. you always changed the subject even if i was telling you that i legit wanted to end my life. over a fucking dude that you don't even know? crazze shit dawg

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marty Other July 08, 2023 at 8:06 pm 0 0