Her

I really need to let this out. Kasi, when we broke up—I didn’t even shred tears nor asked for you to stay and fix it kasi alam kong it won’t be fix. Gusto kong maniwala na hindi totoo ’yung nakita ko kasi sa totoo lang, I did everything to be the best girlfriend that you can have. I did things that I shouldn’t do but I don’t regret it; or maybe a little bit. I told myself “I wanna be better for her” because you made me feel na you don’t deserve things that aren’t better. I loved you so much that I daydream about our future together pero ayon, hindi na mangyayari. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, I won’t fucking ask myself kung bakit niya ginawa ’yon dahil she even knew that I’m not doing a thing that could led her to hurt me. She promised me that she won’t hurt me. Pero sabi nga nila, diba? Promises are meant to be broken.

And now, my life is a mess. I did myself too dirty. I fucked up. But, I can’t help it. It’s the only way to help me to escape from the pain that you caused me. Ni hindi ko na makilala ang sarili ko ngayon. I don’t feel my warmth, my body, and my mind. This isn’t me and I couldn’t escape from it. I am locked. I wanna be save. I want someone to help me.

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AJ Relationships September 11, 2025 at 11:00 am 0 0