Do you ever realise you are really insecure about something even when you thought you were over it and then just feel like really punching the person responsible for giving those insecurities to you in the first place? Because right now it would be amazing to do that. I am still very conscious of my looks my body and most importantly what others think of me. I thought I got over it all but that’s not true at all. I still keep people at arm’s length because I Just don’t want to be hurt again. I wasn’t ever ugly or fat or all the things that my “bestfriend” said I was. And I believed because well , why wouldn’t I. It came from a person whom i did nothing but love. I have crippling anxiety because of all this and I thought I was over it but sometimes smallest of things trigger it and I can’t breathe. I have had 3 panic attacks, 2 were just because of the thought of the things this person said and did. I have fought with closest friends and parents and siblings because these body issues which I have because of her and I really really want her to know how much damage she’s done.
Kavita Body October 20, 2020 at 7:40 pm21
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