Spiraling

I can't trust what I'm feeling because I feel like I'm faking what I feel on the internet is what I feeling really what I'm feeling I was just a faker who fakes things to get attention 

sometimes I wonder if they have a group chat without me and I know they probably talk about me and they're going to already but with all of them do it together in a group

i tell myself my feelings aren't real and I probably just do these things because I want something to be wrong with me because I want attention it my head whenever this happens I'm rational so it doesn't give me any  nothing's wrong it's irrational I'm just making things up nothing's real I'm faking im fake everything nothing real

what I say in my head is different from what I do coming outside crying on the inside I'm telling myself that I'm just pretending so what am I doing Am I sad or am I faking I always say I'm faking My mom once said I pretend that something's wrong with me after I see other people  so maybe I do maybe I'm not even real I'm not real I'm not real

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anonymous Other July 19, 2025 at 2:26 am 0 0