sorry ma

my ma took me out for my bday. just myself her and my girlfriend.
after moving away from a marketing ploy we were seated in a nice spot and were soon disturbed by a family with two screaming children and a baby.

now ive been living above a baby for the last two years.. i hated kids and babes to begin with.. now i absolutely passionately hate them. and by extension i hate the ppl who think that having a kid is a good idea. specially when you are not married, cant financially take care of one either.. (ppl below me)
but this isnt about them...


back to the restaurant, the screaming cut me off from my conversation twice.. i got very agitated..
normally i do not speak out in public.. i let my anger subside and walk away so to speak.. specially around my mother who is known to slap for being disrespectful.
but i lost it.. i just started bitching about this family and how disrespectful they were for bringing their roudy children out.. we were not at mcdonalds or dennys.. this was a local mid class place.

so i went on ignoring my mothers words for me to be quiet.. i was too angry.. and i started ranting then and there at how i feel like every parent there has ever been (implying her of course) is an idiot for taking the gamble of having kids.. (im not going to go off on that rant right now..)

so shes obviously offended but sat and listened.. her face did not betray her feelings inside.. but im sure my words cut deep and hurt her.

so i feel bad for that.. i did not intend to hurt her, however what i said was not something id take back.. i still believe that all parents are fucking morons. however!! in a rant you dont focus on silver linings.. and that lining is that if your gamble for having kids pays off.. and your kids turn out to be functional at least in society.. i feel then you as a parent have come out on top.. more or less.

so in essence, i respect my ma for what she managed to pull off being a single parent with 3 kids.
much respect..

but shes still an idiot for doing it in the first place...

sorry ma... just how i feel..

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