shouldve stayed online.

i started homeschooling, i made online friends, i worked on my mental health just for it to crumble before me.

i genuinely get so scared now when its come to being in call with a particular 3 in a call. one is my ex gf and the other 2 are my freinds. i like calling w them in my gc, but when its just us?

theres this girl i call with, we play robloc toegther alll the time (especially when shes not at school) but when shes with everyone else? suddenly im a loser. its just light jokes like "your so bad as this game" or "yeah sure" when i try and respond. why do they make me feel so stupid and belittled?? and then i say smth weird or unhinged that doesnt offend anyone and suddenly one of them is joking about blocking me, this SAME person muted me on call bc i said something back to her and she couldnt deal with getting shit handed back to her. im sinking closer to my online friends because maybe if i get better with them i wont have to deal with that.

its always the fact the same day i told my friend i HATE being compared to anything yet i just compared and compared and insulted and insulted. like wtf. am i your friend or not?

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anonymous Friends November 11, 2025 at 2:22 am 0 0