Secrets Lies and Honesty

This year had been really bad...I'm a 28 year old adult yet I still live with my parents..I have a job but I have no reason to go solo.Talk about privacy I have none...My own dad controls everything from what I wear, what I post how I should behave I know he wants whats best for me..I love him dearly,yet it kinda feel like im choked. he read my phone conversation with a friend online I got bored and chatted about how he made love to his wife just curious and dad saw that he thought maybe im doing something unethical I did not show anything to the guy it was just a conversation. He saw I was talking to other men too but those men are my friends I turn to them when I have something to rant about this world how angry I was how dissapointed I am when everything collapse i even talk to them when I feel like there are no reason for living they my support he thought those men are my toys...in fact they are just my friends. I even bonded well with a guy friend there he was serious about me i wanted to give him a chance of love because I felt his sincerity.. He even encourage me to go tell the truth coz lies only make this complicated... I want to give it a try but slow and not in a hurry coz I dont want to be on my knees crying. but coz of this I have to delete my account I never even said goodbye I dont even want to say goodbye. ..I had told him to not talk to me coz my dad controls my account . So I really have no reason to look forward to this life. Feels good to rant when I just want this to end.

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anonymous Relationships January 25, 2020 at 12:50 am 0 0