Rat Poison

Somebody mentioned rat poison in their posts. It brought a whole lot of memories back. I remember wanting to commit suicide two years back. It was either poison or jumping for me.

For years, I faced severe harassment, sexual harassment and regular false malignment in my previous workplace. I will not point fingers and say who did what. It was just a very toxic work environment. There was no hope of getting out of it. I was stuck. I will not get into why I was stuck. I was not allowed to complain because it used to backfire in a very bad way.

It changed me as a person. I became very aggrieved, angry, upset, frustrated you name it. I lost respect for people in general the same way people lost respect for me. The words that were thrown about or at me because the common terms in which I would think about them in return. My heart was full of pain and hatred. I was not human anymore.

The change:
God helped me in different forms to change my job.

People started giving me respect that I had never ever received before. Never before have I had coworkers who cared about me at a personal level. My heart started to heal. I started respecting people again.

I am glad that I did not commit suicide because God helped me and showed me that it can be a wonderful life.

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anonymous Work April 17, 2021 at 8:26 am 2 0