Oh well

Idk I'm just sad. I'm ugly and I just kind of feel like I'm unloveable. I've been going to therapy but I still hate myself and I honestly don't know what to do.
I'm just so fucking sad because I will never have a relationship unless I learn to love myself but I'm too fucking awful for me to be nice to myself. Like the self-bullying is so severe and the worst part is that I honestly feel like I deserve it.
Then again if I hate myself this fucking much I can only assume how everyone else sees me. No one out there gives a shit about me. I know that's not true. My friends aren't the type of people who would put up with me if they truly hated me. They must feel some type of way about me. My family also cares and I know that. But sometimes I get overwhelmed by the thought of how bad it can truly be if I was to disappear.

I wish I could see something in me that isn't terrible. I'm tired. Aight Imma cry myself to sleep.

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beemo Body March 02, 2021 at 6:58 pm 2 1