My mom

I hate my mom so much I hope she dies soon I hate her so much she’s a liar she smanipulative she hits me for no reason and damages me psychologicallly I hate her so much. She just hit me because I was about to make cookies and she was like get out the wax paper and I said I know I’m supposed to use the paper you don’t have to tell me and she started slapping me really hard and pulling my hair and throwing water at me and I kept telling her to stop and to get away and she kept getting mad and hitting me more. Does that seem like a good reason to beat the shit out of your child? I wasn’t even talking back I was just annoyed because I’m not stupid I know I’m supposed to use wax paper. Then I sat on the couch and I was crying and I hated her so much so I just said “I hate you” and then she got up and pulled my hair and threw me on the floor and started hitting me and yelling at me but i grabbed her arms to try and stop her and she got madder and kept hitting me and I was like stop hitting me. This happens so often she finds the smallest reason to abuse me one time she told me to go clean something and I said I would do it later and she slapped me so hard across my face it stung. Infucking hate my mom k could write an entire bbook on everything she has ever done she’s a lair and humiliates me whenever she csn but at the same time I’m scared to tell someone because she’s my mom and I love her simoly because she’s my mom despite all she has done but sometimes I wish she would just die I don’t know what I’m saying I’m so mad I want to hit her theway she hits me. My dad doesnt do anytbign when she hits me he doesn’t hit me but he never stops her and he hates her too I want to die I had a bad day today because she kept talking and talking and talking and never shuts up and I asked if she coudl be quiet for a little bit because I took q tets today and I was tired and she kept talking louder and louder to make me cry becayse I cry easily she always does that she does things she knows will annoy me so that I get mad and cry so she laughs at me and mocks me when I cry or yell. I’m sorry for the run on sentecnes I need to write somejthing because I don’t have anyone to talk to so an anonymous rant website is all I have. I want to die I hate my mom I hage my life I don’t have friends, well I do have friends but I ahte talking to them about tjings like these because I tried to tell one of them one time and he would just change the subject or just not take me seriouslt I hate everyine I want to die. My mom throws me on the floor when she gets mad and a few times she has hit my head ahainst the wall then she saiys stuff liek “I would never hit my dsughter I live her so much hitting kids is wrong” stupid fucking bitch she’s a hypocrite and the only tjing she does is lie. She wants to control my life after I’m an adult she wants me to go to college even if I don’t want to and get married at a certain age I hope she kills herself she has seasonal deñression. I’m writing too mcuh I wish I had simeoen to talk to. Help me. I could keep writing for hours and yet no amount of time would be enough for me to write everythung that I think about. This is emough for todya.

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anonymous Friends April 22, 2021 at 8:19 pm 1 0