they, don't like me expressing any emotion or need. I am never allowed to express any success or win. I am seen as boastful and overly prideful if I tell too many people how I did or what I have been doing. I am not allowed to go anywhere and lately not allowed to buy things for myself that I like, like clothing, holidays, make up and I was even punished for buying 3 Christmas décor things for the house and I don't do that every year either so its not like its all the time. I rarely am allowed to get my hair done or get pleasure or real genuine sympathy. I hate them and their controlling. Really its gone too far. I want to improve my health and not be ordered around and treated like a barking dog to be shit on and trained and I end up feeling bad just starting a course or looking at some music cds to buy or make up now. I have no personality compared to who I used to be.
not impressed Other October 18, 2020 at 5:32 am30