Im tired of everthing

Im tired of school like a lot of people i know that. I cant even join classes without feeling normal not scared of what going to happen in a lesson or not having my anxiety sky rocket during the day it drains the shit out of me. And evrytime my friends say to me "yo j u really motivate me to go foward in life and not to give up" it breaks me dont get me worng i love my friends and i dont want them to leave bcz i dont want school to kill them before they can even get out to the real world but it hurs that i dont even lisen to MY own fucking advice and want to leave so bad this shity place. Its like i tell myself bitch you can power through it grades dont matter and then i go cry in the fucking bathroom about a bad grade that most likely wont even be seen ever again. School has become the most annoying most irritating and tiring shit ever lately. In person school at least you could see ur friends get a hug from them and laugh with them and now its just nothing ffs its so dumb. But ngl i dont want to go back as much as i love my friends and shit my anxiety will kill me it gotten so much worse during the fucking quarintine that i cant even leave the house without feeling anxious. And everyday my own brain is figthing itself and trying to motivate itself to stay and do anything stupid that i will regret later. I want it to end it tbh not even worth it. Bcz when ur own mind i over ur bullshit its not fun

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J School March 01, 2021 at 2:51 pm 1 0