I hate work and my addiction to porn is spiraling

I fucking hate my job, I get up early in the morning to drive one hour to work for fucking 11 hours and then drive another hour back. I hate my coworkers, because they started before me they only chat among themselves in their own little bubble while ordering me around to work, when they teach me they show me shit once and then asks me to do it alone a whole fucking month later and is surprised I am not confident on doing the task or have to ask questions and act like I am stupid. I hate how I get home and I am too tired to do anything, I barely have any energy to even watch videos and instead just want to sleep. I hate waking up to work, I get anxiety and keep waking up hours before work from nightmares about work and how I have forgotten stuff and in the end I get up exhausted.

These anxiety and hatred for work has made me slowly spiral back into my fucking porn addictions, not just any porn addiction but fucking cuckolding porn addiction where I play games or read erotica or watch fucking videos about getting cucked. I hate it, I FUCKING HATE IT. I don't know how it became a fetish but I have been suffering since highschool from it, I DONT WANT THE LOVE OF ME LIFE TO CUCK ME IN ANY FUCKING WAY. Yet, I have this fucking fetish that comes back to haunt me when I am mentally exhausted. I stayed away from it for a while but now that I am stressed I found myself relapsing again. FUCK THIS. I wish there was no cuckolding or anything like that in my life or around the world. I am slowly beginning to distrust women because of it.

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Jason Work December 04, 2022 at 2:41 am 0 0