hi. please help me. i vape. smoke weed. i take mdma. i take ketamine. i’ve taken drugs laced with cocaine before. i drink and do drugs together. there is something wrong with me. i go to the beach with the people that i call my friends (i do love them but none of us are good for each other) and i get smashed off my fucking head every friday and saturday night and sometimes sunday mornings. everything i do makes me realise how much i’ve fucked up my life but i can’t stop and i don’t know if i care enough to. i sit in my room on the floor at 4 pm after i get home from school and i cry and vape and complain and i want to kill myself. is that selfish? i think so. i’m a middle child (not really an excuse but i blame this for my attention seeking, forcibly ‘independent’ (lonely) behaviour) and my parents don’t give a shit about me. i live with my mum, she’s best friends with my older sister and babies my two younger twin sisters. i crave attention. i do drugs. i drink too much. i don’t care. i want to commit suicide. i’ve tried and i’ll try again until it works. i love drugs. just wanted to get that out. thanks. bye.
anonymousOther September 12, 2019 at 12:32 pm20