Guys like you keep telling me a lesson. That no one is genuinely interested to be romantically involved with me. Am i really that messed up and hard to be noticed? Am i sketchy? What's wrong with me. I cant air this out to people bc where i am, gays are stigmatized. I cant be myself, and tell my feelings to others.
I hate my position bc as much as im really scared to let go and love, i dont want to be alone like I am now. Being in a place of constant rejection makes me think that im not worthy of being in a relationship at all.
I'm exerting a lot of effort to become a better person lately, but damn this just hurts. I want to love and be loved. I want to make an effort to make someone happy. I want someone who will spend quality time with me. Grrr this is so so sad.
JIRelationships May 27, 2022 at 11:50 pm00