Do I keep going

Every day, I get up, go to school, and right when I get there my life goes to hell. First off, I don't have many friends and I'm mostly classified as the "queit kid." I usually don't mind, I don't like getting a lot of attention anyways. But- recently one of my friends turned their back on me and just decided not to be friends with me anymore. I was so scared and co it confused, and I started feeling, that it was my fault. I replayed our conversations in my head, searching for what I did wrong. But all I remember is happiness and laughter. Yet, I still felt I did something wrong. And I started thinking, I should leave my other friends before I hurt them, before I did something wrong. And now I'm going to the present day. This feeling is still there, and I started avoiding my friends, and I started telling myself I was a horrid person and I should just die.. I would have been better if I wasn't here. Other things made this feeling stronger. In certain classes the teacher humiliated me, the whole class was listening. Then my parents also scolded me for having a fricking a-. My brother literally ignores my existence or makes it a living hell. And I'm stuck in my head screaming. I SHOULD JUST DIE, EVERYONE WANTS THAT DONT THEY! NO ONE WANTS ME HERE, IM JUST A PIMPLY KID. IM JUST A LITTLE SELFISH BRAT WHO EVERYONE LOOKS PAST. I COVER BEHIND A SMILE.. But.. I'm screaming inside.. And.. Would anyone even care if I just.. Dissepared?

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anonymous School March 15, 2019 at 12:03 am 0 1