Dear ex bestie, Fuck you.

I am just genuinely so fed up with this girl now. I used to think so fondly of her and I used to be so close with her but now I just feel like such an idiot for feeling any of those things at all.
I met her in my last year at school but I had known of her for a long time. I'm shy and it takes me a lot of effort to befriend someone. It took me like a year to actually speak to her because I was so shy. We had only one class in common and that class was only like twice a week. Those days would be the best for me because it meant that I got to see her. After finally talking to her and getting along with her I quickly realised how alike we were.
Without exaggeration she was EXACTLY like me. We laughed at the same things, we had the same personality , the same interests ,the same hobbies even our family life was near identical. I had never found someone so oddly similar to me. I loved hanging around with her in school and the days she didn't come to class were like hell for me because I had to be by myself. Eventually the school year came to an end. We stopped seeing each other everyday but we still had each other's contact so we would text nearly everyday. Multiple times a day actually.
She did this weird things once where she texted me at 1 am and i happened to be awake and so I responded. We had a conversation and then went to sleep.
The next night she texted me at 1 am again and I just so happened to be awake. Same thing happened. The third night, LIKE AN IDOOT, I decided to stay up late to see if she would text and like clockwork she did . I'd stay awake at night for daysss just hoping to get a text from her again like some lovesick idiot. We would text so often and she'd call me her best friend and i would think "wow there is no one on planet earth I am closer to than her " (I was so stupid)
Then one day she said something like she has exams coming up so she would be online less often. I said sure thing no problem , gotta focus on your homework right. She texts me maybe once or twice in like 4 to 5 days. So it's a pretty big change but her she said she was gonna be busy so i didn't mind it, i didn't wanna bother her . Then she texts me that her exams are over and I'm like yay we can finally talk more again ! BUT NOPE. this girl decides to just text me less and less until it has reached the point where I get maybe one text in a week? I used to double text triple text and she'd respond only to the last message I sent and just ignore the other ones. WHAT THE FUCK ? Did I I do something wrong ? At least have the balls to tell me so if i pissed you off or something???? I was so confused because to me it seemingly went from being BEST FRIENDS to COMPLETE FUCKING STRANGERS !!?? this girl would say we were so close and that I'm her best friend ?? Where tf did all those sentiments go. And then she just stops responding to me like at all. Iv lost so many tears, I spent so much time thinking about it WHAT DID I DO WRONG ? WHO FUCKIN KNOWS. I loved this girl with all my heart and she took everything we had and just dumped it in the trash. What the actual fuck. I hate that you are still on my mind. I hate that I think about you on your birthday. I hate that you think if was okay to fuck over our friendship. I hate that to you I was nothing when to me you were everything.
I tried to text her today. I just said some crap like " hey it's been a while how are you doing!! " And she responded dry as ever with I'm fine busy with homework blah blah blah the usual. Then she took a slight interest in my life and casualty asked me if i managed to make any new friends in uni. I didn't wanna seem like a loser so I said "yeaa sure I have" I have not .
And then i asked her the same thing. AND THIS GURL HAS THE AUDACITY TO RESPOND WITH "yea i made a new friend I'm really close to her she's like my best friend" THE ACTUAL FUCK??? We were supposed to be close to each other and we were supposed to besties if you hadn't screwed everything over and dumped our friendship in the trash. I kind of hate you and I hate that I even made the effort to talk to you and I hate you i hate you. Oh and also, i hate you. I was always nice to you and I always had your back and always took your side and i always listened to you rant and I introduced you to most of your favourite things. I ACTUALLY HATE YOU FOR BEING SUCH A TERIRBLE FRIEND AND MAKING ME FEEL LIKE ALL MY FEELINGS WERE USELESS AND CRAP AND UNIMPORTANT. When no one was there to help you in class, I WAS. It was a mistake to befriend you cuz all you did was give me happy memories and then smash them with a fucking hammer.
Before we got close in school, I was so fucking excited to talk to you and id tell all my other friends about you and how cute you were. They would all say the way I talk about you was as if I had a crush on you. And maybe I did back then. I would have been fine if you treated me like shit from the start but to call me your best friend and then have a complete change and treat me like shit, HURTS. U HURT ME AND NEVER FUCKING BOTHERED TO APOLOGISE. I hope your life is awesome and you have an awesome time with your new friends and awesome new University and just soak up each others awesomeness. YOUR A BITCH AND I HATE YOU. maybe you'll manage to keep your current best friend if you don't fuck over the friendship like you did ours. I loved you . not anymore tho . You can go fuck yourself.
- your so called ex bestie

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Ihopethisfindsyou Friends December 02, 2025 at 12:56 pm 0 0