I still miss you

I really hope you realize that even after what you did, I still feel things for you, and I really hope that we could bring it back to where we were before that prom night. I fucking hate that I treated you like that, and I hate that I'm only realizing it now. I still remember that carnations are your favorite flower, and purple is your favorite color. I only made that playlist just because I wanted to remember you even more. I thought that I could forget about you but I really can't. I still hope you think of me from time to time, I still listen to your favorite songs (as ashamed as past me would be). I'm just so confused about my own emotions, and I hope that you know who you are, and that you know who I am. I'll be open, for as long as I can keep waiting. The end of the year really hurts, now just realizing that I probably won't be able to see you every day, or every other day, then pretend to turn away from you when I really wanna still look at you. I haven't moved on, and I could only wish you didn't too, but it already seems like you did. I hope you're happy now, I know he'll treat you better than I ever could, but as much as it hurts, at least you're happy. I love you forever, I love you always. - J

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anonymous Crushes May 07, 2024 at 6:59 am 0 0