I don't know if I have any fears about coming to believe, although I fear the unknown quite a lot. I'm afraid of success or change. I'm afraid of how these things can affect my life negatively or the lives of those that I care about. I'm afraid maybe God isn't real and I might be fooling myself and lying to myself about it. Maybe I'm just trying to delay the inevitable or prolonging it. Maybe I'm just avoiding taking action on my own and taking responsibility for myself by hiding behind God. Maybe this is bullshit. I'm afraid I might be lying to myself in the long run. Or I'm not hearing God's voice.