I've been with my "boyfriend" for a month and a half. It took us three months to get together. He broke up with two other girls for me. Our relationship started out amazing, it seemed like it had been worth the wait. Fast forward to now, and we haven't talked in like a month. No lie. We talked about how we don't talk about two weeks ago, but then we went right back to not talking. Now I'm back to wanting to date the guy I chose my current boyfriend over, and my boyfriend is back to flirting with other girls. Even if I didn't want to date him, I still need to break up with my boyfriend. It obviously isn't working. But the problem is, I don't want to end it. I still care about him. I don't want to hurt him or myself, but ending it will hurt us both. I know I need to do it, but I just don't know how or when. I can't get my mind off of it, and it's hurting me.